Good, but scary

Posted on: July 24, 2011

Last week I took an Infant CPR class.  This is something I should have done a long time ago considering my son is 8 1/2 months old and the “infant” CPR is only for babies 12 months and under.  After that you have to go to a CPR class for “children”.  But, better late than never.

I went to the class feeling like I was doing something really good for myself and my little monkey.  I feel it’s always good to be prepared in case of an emergency.  However, I didn’t realize what taking the class would do to me…

Things started out well with the instructor talking about general baby safety issues and baby proofing your house, etc.  Then, it came time for the video and to learn how to perform CPR on an infant.  The video starts and plays out a scenario with grandparents babysitting their granddaughter.  The grandmother goes to check on the baby only to find she is not breathing.  So, the grandmother panics, screams for her husband to call 911 and begins CPR.  The whole time I’m watching this, my little man’s face pops into my head and I picture me and him in this scenario.  I immediately tear up and have to stop myself from breaking down in front of the whole class.  I looked around to see if any of the other mothers had tears in their eyes, but they didn’t.  Just me…Either that or they too were hiding it.

The class continues and all I think about is my baby and if this were him.  I had to stop myself from crying multiple times.  As I was practicing the CPR on the infant dummy they gave us, I kept thinking, “Please God don’t ever let me have to use this.  Please God don’t ever let me have to use this” over and over and over.

The next morning, as I was feeding my little man breakfast, all I could picture was that video.  We had also learned how to perform the Heimlich maneuver on infants so, that was also fresh in my mind.  While he was eating, I kept thinking, “please don’t choke, please don’t choke”.

Before I took this class I was living in a state of blissful happiness.  Of course, I am aware of the dangers of SIDS and choking on food, etc.  but it wasn’t in my face every day.  After taking this class, it’s in my face every day.  It’s going to take some focus to not think about it all the time after seeing that video, but at least I feel very prepared Heaven forbid something should ever happen.

2 Responses to "Good, but scary"

Thank you for posting this…you reminded me to get with the program…Chloe’s ped offers free CPR classes. I pray God would give you peace over the anxiety you are having and just think of this new skill you’ve learned as something you may not even have to use, a just in case only skill 🙂

Thanks Ranay! I am very glad I took the class. I think it’s a great skill to have. It’s nice that Chloe’s Ped offers the class for free. I took it at our hospital and had to pay $35. Not a lot, but free is much better! 🙂

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